Father
Brother
Mother Mary

thank you for what i about to receive today

i was ready to go elsewhere
stopped here
so it is sunny out
rare to come by these days
and am not able to leave to go anywhere
having withdrawal problems from the zonagran 100 mg
once a day for the feet and hands
stomach cramps so bad several nights ago
would have gone to hospital
pulled through the night
Father the enormity of it all
the powerlessness
the pain in every form
what am i
who am i
but your child
i ask to feel you
i ask you touch me
i am not blind
i see the beauty in all the
chaos
this is truly a test upon test
and never ending
as i know i must forgive
as my Brother teaches me
God forgive me of any pain
i may have caused
and don't know it
i will NOT try another drug
as i write i am going through withdrawals
my brain tingling like mad
i know the signs and symptoms
as only you know
to myself i will be true
therefore i will continue to suffer the
pains i do in my feet and hands
my back is burning today
mostly upper right back
and as time is passing
is spreading over the left side
my cross i still carry
your Love keep me afloat
as my blessings
are what i must focus
on
Amen
me