Icelander,

I had purposeful loss at first, with the diet change to vegan and a hope that I was amongst the bulk of people with diabetic neuropathy who see cessation of advancement of symptoms and perhaps even improvement.

Over twenty month vegan, from 282 or thereabouts to a 230 that seemed high upon my primary doctor visit last week. I was around 300 when the symptoms started, but had dropped to the 280s with portion control and a snapping of the feed bag strap.

My numbers continue to look glossy. I am in prediabetes via a1c measurements and all my other numbers have improved every test for over theee years.

I'm pondering adding seafood, though mostly for more onega 3s than protein. I consume enough.

I'm at a loss as to what to change or improve. It is all I have pushed for essentially for years now, or close enough. Despite all this I type this with effort using my numb hands that lead to numb forarms, which leads to typos that at one time would upset me, though now feel like a signature.

I am about 6 months out of being as low in weight as I think I should get. At this point we are going to look into autonomic issues near my stomach, as nausea and processing issues are around. I have never eaten more "clean" in my life. I think it had helped.

This is quite the puzzling process. I find myself at another stumble and fall. I'm getting up. I have so much to be thankful for. I have to think about how much pressure I use to hug my kids, be wary of where I step and on what part of my foot, I am encumbered by doubt and worry of the future, but I am wrestling with them, planning as I can.

I find 2-3 meals a week I truly adore at this point. I eat and marvel at these moments. I can still see the beauty through the grey. It's just Seattle skies sometimes.