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Originally Posted by gruvingal
I have been in so much pain for so long, physically and mentally, that I am just done! The doctors do nothing more than take information and send you on your way. I have told them over and over for three years that something is wrong with my lower back (numbness and pain from crotch to butt, over to hip, down legs). I finally had an MRI yesterday for this and my neck because the pain has gotten so bad. I have never had pain while doing an MRI, but yesterday my lower right side of my back was killing me on that table and causing spasms. Now I am in pain even worse and the pain meds are just not cutting it anymore. I cannot take more because I will throw them up. If I take the Flexeril I will be jello on the couch. Just four years ago I was up in the woods with Doug getting wood for our stove in the shop and to sell. I could run around like a mountain goat! Now the best I can do is hobble to the mail box! I have thought of suicide more in the last two years than I have in my whole life and it scares me! I fear I will be crippled just like my Mother.
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Dear friend
Reading your post I cannot oversee your emotional pain hass
a hold on me as well
I can relate to a point
I am afraid to have ANYMORE SURGERIES
with my history of how it all began to where I am
now
Please my concern as my own is how deep of a depression
I or you and many others
I have opted out to have first suggestion was the pain pump
Just could not do when I can ingest
And a tolerance level that is in the pits
I want to throw up all my Meds
I have a highly sensitive stomach
Then SCS
And found this blessed place
And have been here ever since
I go back in the year 2010
Thought it was a stiff neck
Double fusion cervical 5/6-6/7
Done twice failed horribly
And uuring my cervical recovery
found my breast cancer in my right
breast
I hear your desire to throw in the towel
I am here to ask you please not today
And if the feeling comes as I wake with it
I tell myself
Tomorrow
It has been in the last two years I feel the same
First starts with pain and most times IT dictates
how the waters will be for the day
I have a wonderful support group here those who have reached
out already who held me up when I just couldn't anymore
Please make sure you keep yourself well enough
and when them very dark thoughts put it off tomorrow
and at that moment reach out
I know how great the pain can get both physical and mentally
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
Love
Me