I am sorry. A pain Dr. SHOULD be well versed with that topic because it goes hand in hand with chronic pain of any type ! Time to get your B on skip talking to nurse and as soon as your pain dr. walks into room with you stand up so you are face to face and say out loud... I have been trying to tell you.. then raise your voice slighly louder ..that I cant live like this . I feel like i am gonna hurt myself . With your voice still slightly loud tell pain doc you have thought about suicide and that you think about it more often lately. Then hand him a handwritten note stating what you just spoke about all the above mentioned. Hand the pain dr. that note and tell him to add that note of paper to your records . Which he should have in the room with you at time of dr visit. If your pain doctor refuses to add note to your records and dismisses you ... sister you need another pain doctor ! In the mean time ... make yourself at home in the forums here lots understanding helpful folks who care. And some of us really do know how much it meens to you. Because it ment so much to us when we found this place and someone took the time and cared . Heck I still come to neurotalk just because people care. Sorry that nurse was unprofessional . Stay strong and dont give up. Gentle hugs. PEACE. BMW