Originally Posted by eva5667faliure

Dear Cheryl
My name is Eva
It's been a blessing to have
found this place while doing homework
on my issues at the time
There is so much I want to say to you
First coming here as I am truthful in what I am
about to express
There are a number of doctors on my
what I refer to as the Eva train
At the moment my pain specialist is driving my train
Second if I may
Start a log on what is happening with you everyday
May it be a calendar a diary or even the old school
marble books
LOG EVERYTHING
MY ELDEST CHILD SUFFERED HER FIRST SEIZURE
IN 2003 GRAND MAUL TO BOOT
it's been a long road with that baby
I call all my kids my babies
And you are right
Despite the troubles that engulf this family
I have four children
And raising my four year old granddaughter
As how the heck I make it
Yes
By the Grace of my Father
And the people HERE
what better way to get information
from us who have
experiences strengths and hopes
I have a shrink
It's been a good number of years I'm with him
only to find after I lost my municipal job and insurance
Things changed when I became a SSD recipient
Point my time with him was not for me anymore
What I mean to say
Like I a fellowship I am involved in AA
in it I found people I had something in common with
and I wanted what they had a life without a drink
AND SO MUCH MORE OF THE GOOD STUF HAPPENS
NOW HERE AT NURO TALK
like my fellowship
Looking for answers on my botched
Two level cervical fusion
And since then had both breasts removed
Cancer in my right breast
I am involved in many forums
As they apply
If I may ask
Did you notice you mood
to have changed for the worse
CYMBALTA, LYRICA, EFFXOR, AMTRIPTALINE
And the killer that took me to the dark side
WAS LEXAPRO
You know what I'm talking about
this is just to name a few
All for the hope of relief from peripheral neuropathy
making my life a living hell in addition to
the botched surgery twice
And while I these Meds I noticed my mental
changes coming off of them messed my head up
S U I S I D E
you understand
I married young and divorced young
Having three children from my only marriage
And my angel seventeen years later
My four babies
In their mid to younger thirties
Back to point
My epileptic child never was hurt (brain)
Her problems with severe migraines started in high
school
The headache would reach a point she would seize
Long story
Be vigilant
Go to
Eye doctors
ENT doctor
Dentist you could let's just say hypothetically you may
may be grinding your teeth

Now my experience with the above mention of med
we tried for my hands and feet would put me into
suicidal thoughts horrible black hole
I am still in a terrible place with my depression on its own
Not to mention the Meds could have pushed me over the
edge
And because of this loving understanding place where I was
not the only one in this killer of a funk
Because you mentioned CYMBALTA a red flag for me

Now I have mechanical pain that my opiates cover to a point
The other problems are all nerves related
and my body rejects all

It took a long time to figure out how much of what I
should take for the other stuff

In closing as I want to go on and on
YOU HAVE NO CHOICE OR OPTION
YOU SAY YOU LOVE YOUR CHILDREN
SO THEREFORE YOU WILL NOT KILL YOURSELF
YOU, WE are needed and are responsible for the pain
WE inflict on others
My father committed suicide when I was nineteen
Oldest of three girls
So please stick around
You are needed
And I certainly need you
Do not be afraid your not alone
Love
Me