Hi

Once again, I'm on here complaining.

I can't move on, I cant accept, I cant be happy with what I have in life.

I'm miserable. My pain is worse all the time. The scary and maddening thing to me right now is when I lie down my body gets really heavy, hot, feels numb, feels like I'm being squeezed all over and burns/ stings really badly. I'm scared.

I know nobody can help it tell me what I'll be like in a year, so I dont know why I'm posting....I am mentally Ill.

I constantly feel like I'm in a bad dream. That this is magically going to go away. I'm in denial. I build up this wall of denial that lasts for a few or a few days then it comes crashing down and I'm hysterical again.

I just want it to end.

I don't know what to di with myself anymore...