Sorry to hear about your loss. One of the hardest things in life is accepting what is. We would like things to be different and we become depressed when they are not. Try letting go and like the old saying says: "Let go, Let God, " whatever you believe Him to be. Sometimes, when things like this happen they are actually opening up more amazing opportunities for us. I hope you will be getting some kind of compensation or are eligible for unemployment :-) If so, take that time and money and stay open for new possibilities.