making it to my pain specialist
i explain what happened with
the last DRUG ZONAGRAN
and why i needed to stop it
i called the office when i stopped
went through the withdrawals
he didn't seem to
i don't know interested
concerned
explained what happened with my shrink
and bottom line asked him to dispense my xanax
so i begin to tell him of the research i came across
with what neurologist doctor Kevin Tracey
and how the nervous system might be able to be hacked
a very intriguing study and trials in the works
he cut me off and said he wasn't interested
that there have been studies like what i was explaining
what a thought not to have to take meds
for one thing and hope it works and it not destroy other organs
i so f****** frustrated at my doctors
doctors i have been with since the beginning
i'm sick of it
just sick of it
why strip m of my HOPE
oh maybe because it isn't another drug
NO MORE FREAKING DRUGS
so i won't be happy right at the moment
discouraged
treated as if what i say and physically feel
is not in my head but nothing else
one thing for certain
the drugs are kill me also
make no mistake
how i hate them
my doctor stole my thunder
while he'll be on a two month vacation
jeez i'm so angry
me