Hi Kay,

I can assure you that you are writing clearly, your current situation tears at my heart. Nothing is worse than a trusted Professional disappointing us in the level of Care we need and expect.

I am not BP, having just the one side, Depressive Personality Disorder. I've been to that darkest of places, I live just above that level due to heavy doses of Mirtazapine now, but we can all slip.

While you are going through this difficult time please always hold in your mind that Friends and Family in the Real World and here care greatly about your wellbeing. Everything passes, you will be able to access your Dr very soon, hopefully that will produce the results you seek.

Dave.