If your doctor is prescribing anti-psychotics but was not willing to give you this diagnosis earlier, I suggest you find someone who is a better communicator.

When did your doctor tell you 'bi-polar and psychotic' ?

Bi-polar is by its definition an on and off cycling condition with the swings of varying amplitude.

You need to find someone who will help you understand what is happening and teach you how to communicate your experiences. I don't think this forum is appropriate for you.