Sam, please make sure you talk to your parents, your doctor, a loved one or even your closest friend if you continue to feel extremely low and depressed and especially if you're having suicidal thoughts. That's a very scary place to be for someone so young and it's important that you tell someone that you trust and feel comfortable with just how bad you're feeling. It's sometimes easier to keep it inside, but it's times like this that we really need a strong support system in place to help you through it all.