Goofy,
Oh wow, I am just seeing this.
I am sorry you've lost your brother.
I have lost 2 of mine, each at very different times, and it's been tough to get through the grieving. It's taken me years for each.
Please be ultra-kind and compassionate toward yourself, as it takes significant time to heal.
((((((((( Goofy ))))))))
Lifting you up,
DejaVu