Thanks guys. Sometimes I just need a safe, judgement free zone to let my thoughts out. I try so hard not to burden people with my own troubles and difficulties. Even at work...that other employee felt SO bad that she hit me like that and I know she didn't mean to hurt me...and it made ME feel bad to have made HER feel bad. Ugh! It can all just be such an emotional trap. The hardest part for me is taking that time to just REST and recover. With the baby at daycare today I am spending the day on the couch with my feet up...and I'm bored out of my mind and find that when I'm not doing things the pain seems even more intense because I have nothing to distract me. Please forgive my whining...