Father
Brother
Mother Mary

thank you for what i am about to receive today

as i try and stay in this life
my body mind and Spirit
are torn and bruised
bruised badly i am
i dread waking
for that doomed sadness
is ready to take over
manifesting physically
lets see what my shrink has to say about this
never in all my life
in all the sad things that has happened
in my life
i puzzles me so
i in a deep depression
most of it all pretty heavy duty stuff
and i was still standing
i was able to take it all
ALL there was through my way
i took it
did not make anyone else "it" their
PROBLEM
"IT" did not get me
BUT IT DID NOW
my shrink says your way up there
in the world of many unfair happenings
to
"keep up the fight"
he says before my next time with him
it's a bi-weekly thing
so not hearing from my boy
after he calls needing consoling
i comfort assure him all will be
what else
All will just be
haven't heard from him
left a message to call
i am not in a good place
with my older children
not by choice
and i cannot push it under the rug
as much as i have tried
i love and care if they are happy
Father
what happened
will it ever come together
like a puzzle
undone
never coming together
so many missing pieces
and in this unfinished puzzle
i have an image of it finished
with beautiful golden pastel colors
silhouette of my family in our yard
with dog in tow
a tire swing on a old full of story tree
branches that was climbed
by many a happy souls
now ours
this is my puzzle
this is my family
this is our tree
love me