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Originally Posted by hippiechick
I guess that I never expected to be here again but I'm back for now....I've been ill for a long, long time, for those of you who don't know me. For those of you who do know me, I'm sorry that I'm back....Along with facing my Maker every day, today I learned that my adoptive mom was just diagnosed with ovarian cancer. I lost my birth mom years ago...when I was a teen and, eventually, my adoptive parents found me. They taught me everything in the world that I know about love and loving and being good. I still cry for my birth mom everyday; today, when I was talking to my adoptive mom, all I could do was cry. She, on the other hand, is all upbeat and okay with it. She has complete faith that she'll be okay, one way or the other. In my head, I guess I know that....I just wish that I could convince my heart. I lost my mom, my mother-in-law and now my adoptive mom who loves me as if I were truly her own. I just can't shake this....I know that I have to be okay with it, too, but I just can't be today. She hasn't told their "real kids"....my youngest brother is getting married in a few weeks and she doesn't want this over the wedding. I think I was safe to tell because I live in the Midwest and they all live on the East Coast. I just feel very alone and lost right now.
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dear blessed soul
i cannot take away your fear
of loosing someone that has
loves taught you love and continues to love
YOU and your brother
blessed are you to know love
not only form your birth mother
but also of this beautiful person you speak of
i am in awe of her upbeat mode
i a breast cancer survivor 4 more years of
Tamoxifen
what i want you to know
i had two birth parents
my father committed suicide
i was nineteen
my birth mother
would look the other way
whenever terrible things went on
mainly i took the brunt of it all
i am the oldest of three
and i come to learn in my
adult years
the same happened to my sister
the precious time spent with your loved ones
let that run through your veins
i do not mean your feeling of
the possible loss will not hurt
the end on this earth inevitably
comes to an end one day
only to truly be home
i want you to continue to feel the
Love from your beautiful mother in your life
now
i have four children
a grand child
a dog
i love soooooooooooo much
i have to be very careful what i wish for
as i want to be home
it will all be in Gods time to be brought home
not mine
i promised my children
love her
remember her smell
hold her hand when you tell her you love her
she will be taken care of
and will fight and do everything to live
she is alive
now
and so are you
you your soul blessed
twice
love
me