Thank you Mark for your sharing.

Unfortunately, i find my moods fluctuating. On days that i am okay, i am functional and able to cope. On today that i feel in a low mood and drained, i am back here, happy to read about your optimistic post. However, i am also struggling to pull myself up.

Accepting that the pain takes time to heal. I am still trying to get by as the days pass, hoping that each day would bring me some positive happiness for me to store in my "positive memories box". Sometimes, i find myself counting down, countdown to the day that i can have happiness and recharge myself by being alone, just hope that i do not have to put up a "false front of happiness" to act as if i am happy. And hope that one day, i can genuinely finding peace and freedom from the pain. For now, trying my best to get by each day as it passes.