i wonder if this disease
will take my son

i wonder if he remembers
how hard it was for him
to make friends

i wonder if oldest sister
and her side kick brother
will ever make amends
they were so close

i wonder if my third child
babies mother will ever
be well enough to be
a mother to my grandchild

i wonder if my boy knows
how very very much i love him
and hope one day to find his
bliss in life

i wonder if he'll just
do "it" one day

i wonder what he wonders about

i wonder if i'll one day
be blessed we all can share
a moment in time together
all of us at once

i wonder about my wondering
it just never stops

i wonder if i may say
thank you for listening
caring and understanding
it meas the world to
me

i wonder i could also say
he worries me terribly
suffering bi-polar
anxiety
sadness

i just wonder if my boy knows

love
me