Hi falldc,
Welcome to NeuroTalk.
I can feel your sadness, grief, shock, disappointment, sense of betrayal, anger, frustration, discontentment and more. Lots of painful emotions.
I am sorry you are in the midst of what seems like an endless storm.
I think you have posted in a forum. I will look you up there.
I am glad you are reaching out, expressing your feelings, thinking about your future.
Please keep taking excellent care of you!
DejaVu