well, i'm awake. because i'm not taking any meds i didn't sleep well last night. i woke up and woke up and finally at 3am i went downstairs and watched "goonies" until i fell asleep. my husband so generously hogged the bed and had the air conditioner and fan blowing (which KILLS me) so i played musical beds until i ended up on the couch for good. my poor kids.

anyway, my husband yelled at me this morning (if you call 9am morning - by then, the kids and i are ready for lunch). he said i was pounding when i walked and that i was stomping around on purpose. i'm telling you, my body is nuts. i look like i have parkinsons or something because i am trying to keep everything stable. my neck is weak. my legs are weak. my arms and hands...

it's raining and cold today. i like it. i feel that if i want to stay inside and try to sleep all day nobody is going to fuss at me for being inside when i should be outside enjoying the beautiful weather.

screw 'em.

xoxoxoxoxoxo to you all for being so lovely. i wish we all lived in a commune.