My brother is in tow, after not seeing him for years, he's staying at my house for a while in town for business!! I was thrilled.....was...My is very good
So part of my escalating problems yesterday (only the least out of everything), was silly e tough the Seahawks game.... I'm a 3rd generation fan lol!
I had decided to spoil myself that day by getting a whole new look with my hair.I used to have purple hair in HS, over the years I toned itdownforwork keeping to, not quite natural but close,vibrant reds, blondes, brunette......
Well I recently let my 9yr death hear P hair blue and green, Seahawks blue and green. Lol. Shelli is the most caring, respectfull,WILLINGLY HELPFUL, child I have EVER known!! And it's NOT being said out of Maternal bias!!
So, with the first preseason game at 7pm local time, my hairt appointment at 4pm, and had three hrs to get hair done, pick up my daughter PLUS her BFF who's also an absolute SWEETIE,pick up 3 items at the grocery, and then home! To make mobile hiegh nachos!!
Well my appt lasted much longer than originally expected....
To clArifying. I'd decided I NEEDED A MAJOR CHANGE!! To recapture some of my youthful exuberance, vitality and spirit of fun, especially since I don't have to tone it down, I chose a mix of blues, teals, purples!!!!! Well out had unbleached first....yuck... so I sat for almost 3 1/2/hours lightening my dark brown hair! Rushed, gorgeous and her friend, went to the store, back home one 19 mins into the game, but still had to make the nachos...
I was starting to get angry, mainly because no one had bothered to wait for me or pause the game while I was cooking, but also became fiance had been such a jerk to me a long time but could easily joke, laugh, and be all buddy buddy with my brother....so ya I was probably shutting the cupboards and such a little hard but I wasn't in a rage or anything just a little passed, seriously only a little.....the loud sounds were mainly due to me being in a hurry to try and watch the game!!
But ever since I had to pick up my daughter I'd started hurting quite a but, my legs mainly, and it was reaching the unbearable..to the point tears were running down my face, at this point my brother came in and started acting a little passed at me, and quite a bit patronising.....
He started to call the kids to get their food and I said no wait let me get my tears wiped and face dry as I didn't want the friend to be worried or stressed about me carrying, my daughter would understand mor, although I try to not cry around her if possible as well ....he got more angry handicapped them in anyway....this point my pain was truly heinous, and I went to lay down in my room, in the dark to breathe through some of it and find my center as well....
I thought everything was fine today, but my brother was still acting a bit off, I found why tonight.....God...
So he had bulging disk with an annular tear and related problems from a work injury a little while after my injury happened. He's now permanently partially disabled, and suffers from a fair amount of pain
himself on a daily basis.. but tonight he basically cornered me and had what amounts to a emotional and physical Intervention.......with him only...
So he says that I came stomping and storming in the door, then acted like crazed person with the noise I made and thought I wasn't accepting my Crps Kimi and thinks I want to scream, kick, and cry out my frustrations, nor have I accepted my limitations on what I can physical do......this is just based on the 5 days he's seen me......we talk about once a month and I hadn't seen him since I was diagnosed......this one hurt, two offended, and three frustrated me to the point of tears!!! Plus I've only had approximately 4-5 hours of sleep in the past 4-5 DAYS, and am experiencing extremely high premenstrual symptoms, though they NEVER make me blitchy thankfully lol.....
So he's getting very adamant about me not accepting my current physical state.........how can I not accept nor deacel with my Crps limits I'd like to know seriously! But my fiance didn't even have any issues with how I'd acted!!!! So he's arguing with me about this and I'm getting angry along with deeply offended and then he staid I was acting like our older sister did and she's the most negative, sour, bitter, and most bitchy person I know!!!! I kept explaining I a