Songbird,

I came here today to say exactly what you said
. I too have been having an increase in pain and total frustration with all that comes with it! I have been wondering why I bother continuing to choose to live this way. I always thought life was about having a family, teaching your children to be great and kind, traveling and learning about the world ....

But I will never have any of those things! I worked hard to get through nursing with a 3.8. I went to work as a cardiac nurse... Things were coming together. I had a five year plan. If finish school, try to have a baby ( at 40+)...and knew o could finally afford to adopt if I needed to... Buy my first home... But I fractured my foot at work and since then life has come crashing down around me. I will never experienced all the things I always thought made the struggles of life worth it.

I just don't know how or why I choose to continue to live in this pain and everything that comes with it.

I'm sorry I don't have much positive to say, except... You do have your daughter and it is important to be strong for her.