Last night's incident with my husband is triggering me NOW... WTF.
Thoughts are ramping back up, rolling around again. And I can't sit still at all. I'm agitated. At least I don't think I'm paranoid today.

I'd be happy talking to him anytime about anything he wants/needs to as long as he's not drunk and yelling.
He hasn't been controlling his temper at all throughout this episode.

I've been trying to hide everything that's been going on with me for the last month and a half to the best of my ability to protect him from further anxiety and pressure... I have put him through a lot.

He thinks everything is always about me though, but everything is always about him. He doesn't seem to care that he's triggering me. Or maybe he doesn't realize it. Or maybe he just can't control himself because of his drinking.

Tonight I go up to 300mg of Seroquel, and tomorrow is my last dose of Abilify (16mg). Come Wednesday I will be on:

300mg Seroquel
200mg Lamictal bid
200mg Topamax
1mg Xanax tid, prn
50mcg Synthroid

I have a feeling I will be calling pdoc's office Wednesday.

Yuck.
Kay

P.S. My doctor requested an RN case manager for me because of all my medical and mental health issues. She just called, and is making a home visit Thursday. She seems very nice. Sometimes you need a good advocate.