thankyou all for your kind posts. last week ,fathers day, was my first without my dad. June the 17th and 18th have always been a major event in my little life due to fathers day then 3 birthdays, (mum,wife and sister in law) the following day. it has always cost me a fortune in cards but not buying that one felt like a huge gap. as you may have noticed i went ever so slightly down hill. cant help but apologise once again for the drunk muppet comment.

i know its part of the grieving thing but the part i find hardest is the way it just hits you like a ton of bricks just when you think or feel you are coping with it, a song on the radio, something on t.v or in my case my youngest asking something in all innocence then is BANG and your straight back to where started.

i must admit between losing my dad in january and a good friend 2 weeks ago, i really am hating 2007 so far, but on a more positive note its all about to change as my sister is due an ikle one any day now ... and my wife and i just found out that we'll be joining her later this year!

life is so very strange at times.....

thankyou all once again.