i dont know if this will help, it works for me sometimes.... sometimes i read it and laugh more times at the moment i cry but that helps as well.

You can shed tears that he is gone,
Or you can smile because he lived,
You can close your eyes and pray that he will come back,
Or you can open your eyes and see all that he has left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see him
Or you can be full of the love that you shared,
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember him and only that he is gone
Or you can cherish his memory and let it live on,
You can cry and close your mind be empty and turn your
back,
Or you can do what he would want: smile, open your eyes,
love and go on


its been 5 months since i lost my dad to an aortic aneurysm, or in other words someone pulling the rug from under you and hitting you over the the head. i left him the night before,with a hug thankfully and he was gone by 10.am the next day. doesnt matter how hard i try it still feels like yesterday..

tc steash.