Thanks to all of you for your support. Can't write much. Need voice activation but in a very long queue. To respond to some of you- there's no pain specialist in my region and no effective rehab ward. I see my GP once a month. Her preference. I've been to ED 6 times in 2.5 yrs. Admitted twice. Once this year for 12 days. It helped, gave me respite. Other admission 2013, a nightmare. First 2 wks fine then transferred to rehab. There was none. I planned my own rehab and tried to do that. Treated badly, they were aware I had a psych history and stigmatized me. I was highly traumatised by the time i left.

I'm on gabapentin, norflex, nortriptyline and coming off a low dose of methadone for pain. Pregabalin isn't funded and lidocaine patches are illegal. I've had tramadol morphine prednisone. None were helpful. I take magnesium and melatonin. There's no where for me to go and no respite care available for me. Don't fit criteria. ED itself has a long history of treating people who experience mental illness badly. Something staff at mental health services acknowledge.. Sorry can't complete this. Too painful.