In reading through some of your past posts, it appears you have always hung onto a need to recover fully. Have you even tried to reinvent your life ?

Losing your spouse is not uncommon. Up to 80% of people with prolonged brain injury struggles do.

I have almost constant tinnitus. I say almost because I have learned to ignore it. I have frequent head aches. My last concussion left me with chronic headaches for about a year. My 1994 concussion caused headaches for about a year. I live needing to moderate anxiety triggers. I am not always able to so I put up with those times and know they will end. I have very little short term memory. I am always aware of my memory issues because they are so pervasive.

I have plenty of brain injured friends who strive on in their lives with symptoms that make our PCS look like a picnic in the park. Headaches that cause vomiting is just one.

Others here on NT did not see improvements until well into their second year.

Have you applied for Social Security Disability Income ? It's not great but I have survived on it for 9 years. I know others who have, too.

Have you found a Brain Injury Support Group ?

They are very helpful.

You still have plenty of reasons to keep moving forward.

btw, My first experience with thinking about ending it was when I was only 11 years old. But, day by day, I went forward. That was 49 years ago.

My best to you.