It is. And it sucks, and it's completely unfair what has happened to you. But finding a way through your current issues will help move you back closer to the person you were... I think all of us have gone, are going, and/or are struggling with the same things... I suspect for some of the people that have endured this for years and years, they likely can see the phase that you (and me) that you're in and know that there's a way through it.

Get some professional help and use the community when you need to... we're all here for you.