Dearest Indigo,

There are already many wise words here. I am hard pressed to add anything. I second the suggestions for continuing to reach out, find a PM (even if you have to travel) and to seek a therapist familiar with chronic pain.

I know how hard it is when the pain is so great that you question whether you can make it through the next five minutes. It is exhausting. But I also know that it is possible to learn to live with that kind of challenge and to find beauty in your days in spite of the pain. A good therapist help me get there. I am deeply indebted to her for helping me learn to cope.

I, like Dave, am getting relief with ketamine infusions. They are good at addressing centralization. Please keep searching for specialists who can help you. it is worth the effort. Half my care team is 3 hours drive from me and I don't even think twice about going to see them.

I will be keeping you in my prayers and sending healing love to surround your battered body and spirit.