Wow, Thank you so much to everyone who has replied and is here to help.



I do talk to my parents about my PCS and they know and get all of that. And I'm pretty sure they have some knowledge of me being depressed. But I'm scared to tell them that it's getting this bad.



Really, how I think of it, is that if this horrible horrible dream feeling will just go away and I could have my life back.. My depression would get a lot better with it.


But what I don't understand is that, why is this feeling still here ? Why me ? Why am I the one to be haunted ? And yet no one understands this feeling. It's so odd and even I admit that.



Before all of this I was the happiest kid alive. Playing 2-3 sports, extremely active, friends has always sorta been difficult with me, but I still had a couple before all of this. I LOVED LIFE. There could be nothing possibly to go wrong or bring me down. Even if that happened, I would get back up and continue to push forward.



But now..

It's almost like someone has picked up my life and ripped it into shreds and threw it back down. My life is nothing now. When school starts, I don't even know how and what I'm going to do. And I'm extremely anxious over it. It's just nothing..