As I type this with tears in my eyes I wish I could write Sorry I don't have the problems you are having--except that what you wrote really hit home. I have two friends in nursing home. One on each side of town, I truly love these ladies, but I have not been able to force myself to go see them. I think it is part of both RSD and depression, but as I thought about what you wrote I think I do not want to go to the nursing home because I don't want to think I may one day end up there. I hate going to the hopital and to the Dr. it is like they have replaced the fun things in my life. Don't know if this helps, but am sending Take Care Carose