Welcome Dancing Lady!

So glad you have signed in and have introduced yourself.
I hope you find the information and some of the support you are looking for here.
Littlepaw and Diandra have written heartfelt notes. I haven't much to add.
I feel your pain within your writing. I certainly understand why you might feel depressed and hopeless. Life is tough enough. Any added depression can distort our thinking and can make life situations feel even worse. I am helped greatly by making sure I am treated for any co-occurring depression.
Again, welcome!

I hope to see you around the forums.

DejaVu