Debi

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Reading your post brought back so many memories of my own husband who passed away in 2001. I wasn't ready to let go, either. I was 41 and he was 47......way too young.

Doing what you did.....writing it all out......is very therapeutic. I hope you'll come back here when you're ready to write some more. I joined a grief group/website when my DH passed away and met some wonderful friends that I still have contact with today 14 years later!

I live in Georgia, too. Not sure where you are exactly but we're in the same state!

Please take care of yourself. Those weeks following his departure were so terribly difficult. I'd feel almost guilty if I had a "good" day. And I wanted to be around my family more than ever.....thank goodness they were there. I had to tell myself that they, too, were going through a great loss and I needed to be there for them, too. In a way it helped me to be able to be the one to help them. Not sure if that makes sense but I feel like you know what I'm talking about.

Okay, I'll stop babbling now.....just wanted you to know that I truly understand what you're going through and if you ever need to talk offline I'm here.....just PM me and maybe we can chat through email or PM here.

Take care