Hi there,
So sorry to hear of the suffering that is causing these feelings.
Many people find talk of suicide very triggering and so, as per our guidelines, we do ask that members limit discussion of it on the health forums, and rather discuss on the forum we have designated here
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html
We do request that the discussion please not be graphic, again due to this being a very sensitive and triggering topic.
Thanks