Debi
I wish I could tell you that it gets easier......but I will tell you this. And it's something I never thought I'd agree with. TIME will ease things.
First time I heard this I thought "Time is my biggest enemy right now!"
And it will seem that way. Every day seemed endless. There were times the pain of the loss seemed more than I could bear. I didn't want to be alone but when people were around I wanted to run. It seemed to magnify the fact that my husband wasn't there.
But it's something you'll realize in hindsight. You're so very early in the grief process now but as time passes you'll realize that you had more good days than bad. The happy memories will make you smile instead of cry.
Your kids will be lifelines for you. They need you and you need them.
My heart goes out to you, Debi, because I know exactly what you're going through. Hang in there......