Abbie , So many of your posts are so sweet and caring - please don't feel like you can only post when you are doing OK with things.
We want to be here for you too when you are having a really bad time and need some hugs and support
It's so sad when friends and family can't really understand how pain and other things can be so ongoing that the feelings can pile up and just overwhelm any of us at times.
When all we really need is some gentle hugs and a caring person to talk about it with. Not that we expect them to take away the pain, but that they just will sit and care.