Hi Dancing Lady
I've read most of your posts and can appreciate what you're facing. Reading about others trauma on NT, when you are facing your own seemingly impossible dilemma, can exacerbate depressive feelings.

Another reason there may not be too many success stories on NT is that some people are naturally reluctant to 'crow' about their good days or success to those they know are worse off than they are.

However that said there are good stories on here - and there are threads that discuss successful treatments for PN. Admittedly a lot of searching and reading is needed to find them and as you're finding that overwhelming at present maybe a short break until you are feeling stronger might help.

If you think it might help, I'd be willing to do some searching for you, and share relevant threads with you. If you'd like to do this and are able to do private messaging please contact me and we can discuss what you'd like to search.

Walking in your shoes - bluesfan