For the last couple of days I've felt well enough in the morning to try to treat my anxiety before taking any Seroquel...

But this morning when I woke up I had quite a bit of anxiety, but knew right away I wouldn't need a prn, and the anxiety responded well to the Xanax.

I feel like I might be coming down

I'm guarded though. I've made progress several times over the last 2+mo. only to escalate again. A very wise friend of mine has pointed out that Gabapentin is used off-label for many things... it may be acting as more as a sedative than a mood-stabilizer. This may very well be the case, since I've been very tired the last few days. If it is indeed acting as a sedative, the effect will probably wear off and I will need to increase the dosage over time.

And if I've learned anything over the last 2 months, it's that my BPD is difficult to control.

While I'd rather have more history behind this progress to fully enjoy it, I'm going to try my best to cast away my doubts and enjoy this day

Kay