Quote:
Originally Posted by eva5667faliure
DejaVu
your tender expressive sweetness in your
sharing
your l
words are heard
your mindfulness a comfort
you just ever so eloquently
spoke of mutual experiences
as only time wisdom and personal beliefs
as things such as making it to the bathroom in time as
my feet and hands are in such pain
and then the multi factorial problems that follow
to then have to raise ones head
try to bend as my back is not fixable
oh so two orthopedic surgeons say
then i have the hope such as the pioneering doctor
Kevin Tracey of neurology in NYC
his non narcotic approach to healing
i have a child who is an epileptic who has a VNS
it to reboot the brain
that a different subject
back to saying
thank you for sharing
in addition to my existing physical pains
i no longer can use a soft collar something i wear
all the time after surgery number two
something is going on
this i know for certain
Wednesday i see the pain guy
i lost so much respect for
ask him to have a picture taken
to see whats going on
we shall see
bed ridden this body is in a sad frightened
way knowing my body
my hands must be flat when falling asleep
my body contorted in the most unusual way
in the end my forehead tilted ever just so on the least
elevation just enough to breath
again with no collar
it is change again
frightening as it
it is here i come for the unconditional support
something i do not even get from my immediate family
especially when fallen into dark place once
unimaginable thoughts
i cannot lie
daunting
though
my path
my cross
my pain
my surrendering to my Father
when i can do no more
thank you so much for sharing
love
me
|
Dear Eva,
Words cannot convey the huge amount of admiration and Love I hold for you.
I do understand you walk an immensely challenging path.
You are incredibly beautiful, in every way, and this is true even within your most challenging moments. When you write about feeling frustrated, overwhelmed, and dark moments, I feel your pain and at the same time, I see your beauty --the warm, bright light, the huge spark of Divinity which emanates from you.
The ability to know when and how to surrender is important to finding any level of healing, as well as critical to creating moments of Peace.
I read and re-read, further pondering your posts, as you are a gift unto all of us. I have much to learn from you and from all you share.
We are all One in the Spirit. We gather together to share our pain, our fears, our anxieties, our Joys, our Hopes, our Triumphs... and so much more. We gather together to support one another within the unity of this compassionate community. Many of us are truly "family" to one another, often a stronger and healthier family (in many ways) than the families we were born into.
Every member plays a very important role for the whole community.
Such a Blessing!
DejaVu