Father
Brother
Mother Mary

thank you for what i am about to receive in my day

i ask Father
in the name of Jesus
and the Holy Spirit
i rebuke any evil that
has been working on me
Father the human flesh
as Christ
who suffered pain unimaginable pain
of all kinds
the devil's temptation did not escape
Christ Jesus as forty nights and days
Father am i Questioning my Faith in you
by asking to feel your Love
not the Love that is precious between family
but the Touch of your hand
the feel of that flannel shirt
and that awesome smell of the abundance
of the wonderful feel of another who cares
tho know i was witness in my dream
at his body was crucified
as silly as it may sound
i was there
to have had some unexplained
happenings in life that only
Faith in knowing we walk with Him always
inflicted with this suffering
i accept it is as it is
to forgive this i must not have done
truly
for if i did i wouldn't Feel half the emotional pain
to focus on my Blessings
such as
my growing network of support
Mark, Gerry, Rrae, Allfe, Dave, David, Lara,
DejaVu this just to name a few of a pool of caring loving
souls Bizi, PamalaJune and on and on Debi Pooh and her farm
just so mush gratitude
someone not to long ago wrote
just to see a hello is sometimes all one needs to start
their day on a good note
my mental state would have taken the best of me
had i not gotten some of the most important responses
of this new family that understands
for most have and or are
walking in my shoes

i have a demon that is trying so hard to take control of my life
and have special friends who help me fight this

Father strike him down
when trying to penetrate my mind and soul

i am a smart rational woman
and believe i, all are in the making of the Father
so whatever will be
will be

help me in my depression
i want to end my sadness
i want not to hurt anymore
i want the smile to return back in my heart
with each step i take
let the pain be lessened as my meds are what controls me
never once abusing them
a absolute necessity in my life as it is today
my heart hasn't been behaving as it should
time to find another cardiologist
I am comfortable with

Father
bring that special someone
into my life
Blessings are noticed dear Father
allow me to LOVE and be LOVED
this i ask in Jesus name
Amen
Love
Me