Wow what a meaningful post. It must have been difficult for you to put into words the hard road you have travelled. I've been down a similar road the past 5 years. It's very upsetting to look back at all i had and all i was. I try to stay focused on the here and now to make the best of it. I've come to terms with this illness. I still hope for a better tomorrow but if all i get is what i've got, then i'm ok with that too. I am very thankful for my family and friends who have been so helpful along the way. Its nice hearing stories and advice from you and others in this group because you all understand the difficulties i face each day and its comforting to know i am not unique. You all are traveling the same path as i am and we can learn from and support one another. Thank you for your story.