I appreciate your responses more than you'll know. I am feeling much better today about the whole experience, which is what it was. I have regrouped and will carry on. Yesterday I just kept singing a song by Chumbawamba "I get knocked down But I get up again You're never going to keep me down!"
It is now a ringtone on my phone. (Of course it is a song that references a lot of drinking, but I just take what I like and leave the rest