i have been push and pulled
twirled and blown away
with such hatred among this family
there is only so much that this body and soul
the hurt so deep
the wound never gets heal
to feel as i do
and then my grown children who dodge
their responsibility
made a mistake did i ?
they are my children
they asked for help
i did what any parent would
only they are no longer children
to see my eldest able and her husband able
where was the help when needed
it is not a good feeling to have given so much
of me they don't understand my anger towards them
i cannot express anymore then i tried
and tried and tried
am i
should i look disheveled
must i smell of urine
as many cannot bath
i think point understood
as i rarely get to bath
as in sit in the tub
i wouldn't be able to get out
unless
i was sitting on my legs
and my pain won't let me sit
in that position
a position i would be in with children
remembering wrapping the presents
to put around the Christmas tree
how hard i worked to give them somewhat
of a fun life growing
as my kids would now say to me
"mom we never really understood how poor
we were"
i take that
as a job well done
what a shame
many would just assume we had money
but for the only reason

just a blow out wth my sister
be back
me

.....well that was just wonderful
turned out it was one thing on top of another
on top of another and let loose quickly
before she doesn't move
as far as my kids and returning what was mine
for my sister who has been a real turd
even when placing the order
a saving of $62.00 and commented
stuff like
what a big deal
i asked her to shut up
then apologized
for what i thought was rude
really
i'm tired
thanks for letting me share
me