Well no one but you knows what it's like for you now, what you value and what you do not that makes life worthwhile or not. I just want to say I hear you and I support you in any decisions you make for yourself as a free person. I wish for you what I wish for myself, peace and a mostly pain free existence.

I know for me it's very hard to face all this and that I may have to advocate for myself soon but then I think the end is always going to be the same and for everyone. I will die one day no matter what I do now. So it all comes down to nothing more than a matter of timing for me.