Oh how I know that one decision can be made.....
It may be accompanied by terrible belief of hopelessness,
Throw in a real healthy dose of helplessness......
This....this is where I was in 2010
The details nearly drove a very final decision.......
The decision is nothing but personal
That part is always true
Thing is.......others showed me their care beyond my own perception.....
It wasn't that I was living for them
They
We're living for me
Beyond my pain
Beyond the thrum of the spinal cord stimulator which helps manage ......but not eliminating my pain
They
Helped me receive prescribed meds which Did bring anxiety and depression under control with therapeutic help
Then I learned to help others
Save homes from foreclosure
Inspire thoughts some Could find employment again
Lately
For other reasons those old feelings resurfaced
Unbidden
Unwanted
Soul wrenching
Then I knew there was help in the prescribed meds which saved me before
Thus saved
I am here
Bringing hope which I pray will catch ahold of you
Can you help me hope?
I hold hope for you