There were days when I wondered how I'd ever do it alone. Those days seemed to last forever. Then I'd have a day where I seemed to be coping well with the changes in my life. It's just getting used to a new normal. It won't happen overnight.....some days it seems like it'll never happen. But it will. When you look back over the days and months you'll realize how much stronger you've become. I think the trip to PCB was a great idea and it probably did a lot for you towards helping you heal and cope. I was scared, too, but have since gotten stronger or better able to cope or both. Sometimes you surprise yourself at the situations you can cope with and the things you can do.