Debi,
You aren't rambling! This maybe the only place where we can go where people will hear and understand us.

You are lucky that your outing worked out. It is incredibly stressful to be worried that pain could knock you down flat when you should be focused on the moment.

My husband went to a friend's funeral this morning. I could not handle getting ready, never mind the long drive, the church service, the burial and the gathering afterward. I feel awful, but at the same time I know I have to practice extreme self-awareness and self-care.