I think there are all kinds of friends. Some are work friends, some are business friends, some are kid related friends, football friends, and others are in your heart forever friends like the ones you met in childhood that you still keep incontact with. Since my crps started i lost all those casual friendships since i no longer work, volunteer, or entertain. My forever friends have stuck with me since they know me best and dont mind pizza on paper plates. It must be difficult to have been in a ministry and find yourself unable to help others as fully as you used to. If it is an important part of your life, and part of what makes you you, if you miss it so terribly, i would encourage you to find a way to still serve in this capacity though on a smaller scale. Maybe a few phone calls to the elderly in yourchurch? It would be nice to somehow hold onto something that you enjoyed and to stay connected to others that you care about.