Father
Brother
Mother Mary

Thank you for the things I am to receive today

Praying for this evil to rid my body
Those who understand know
What I feel
I pray for you also
For to have this in my being
Is not a blessing
But something that makes
me conscious of the good
that lives for me
For us
To have a heart that welcomes
Your touch be my save
Help me hold on to the good that comes
Let me not whine my life away
Angry I am
Father
This body your child cries
Shameful I am
As so many others are
in a much worse condition
I have become so afraid
Where is my Faith
The work of our Pope
Across the world
Embarrassed at how the Hungarian
people are behaving towards the refugees
My parents fled the county to Freedom
The Pope and his messages softly spoken
To pray the Our Father with him
A snippet of joy
The sadness the robs it from me
The blessings
The blessings
Hold on to them Eva
Holding I am
Place my hand over my heart
feel the beat that says I'm alive
Far from alive am I
In your arms I want to be
The Pope and his message from the
United Nation was beautiful
To hear his soft spoken words of loving
one another
My family
My entire family a total number of ten
Ten of us in this country
Ten
Where am I going
I have no job
I have no love
I have children who have their own life
And have chosen not to be in my life as I
so wish they were
To wrap my arms around one of them
A wish I would so look forward to
I have tried and tried
If I did not take Corissa out of school
Not once
But a second time
A desire to return
Now on a different level
Not the standard way as a young student
But as young adult
I believe I did the right thing
Since I have taken her out
She has been attending a program
Called NewPathway
I have been an active parent
I believe Corissa will do extremely well
when she returns back to school
I am tired about so many things in my life
at such a young age
as for myself that is
Fifty four is young
I do not know what it feels like to be
a older senior as many are suffering with
ailments that come with age and genes
This be my case
Genes gave me a screwed up back
I gave myself emphysema
Don't know if I gave myself Cancer
As it too is in my gene
My maternal grandmother a victim
I want to spend the little time I have left in life
with some self enjoyment
A hobby that I could do to take me out of myself
To be me
Is to want to die
Not a welcomed feeling
None the less it is part of my life
Not a welcomed
With all my might it is
my hope a dream to one day
have this horrible feel taken
so I may enjoy life
One day at a time
Without a tear in a day
One day
Let me count my blessings
May anyone suffering as I am
I pray it disappear in the night
Like a wolf
Love
Me