So many triggers. The least little thing will bring tears. You are still so raw and it is still so soon. It takes time for the heart to heal such a huge wound. The wound will heal in time leaving a scar that may be with you forever. The scar is that part of Bubba that will ALWAYS be with you. Don't try to rush it. You just take it one day, one moment, at a time. There is no time frame imposed upon you and do not allow others to try to impose one on you. Everyone has their own time schedule and coping tactics.

My grandfather set a plate on the dinner table every night for my grandmother for a long time after she died. Her hair brush sat on the bathroom counter for years. He found comfort in how he handled matters and that was his option. There is no right or wrong way to cope with your grief.

Everyone has their own way and you will find your way as well. Don't try to rush.