It's okay to feel all of the above, Blairzo. I hope this all sorts out for you somehow, someway.

I would keep a journal, if for nothing else your own tracking. Many people find relief from supplements and dietary changes. Try to make few or even one change at a time to see what helps/doesn't.

It is a hard thing to cope with, but many folks here do do in a myriad of ways. I hope with all my being you have to do such for a short amount of time.

Best of wishes,

Jon